Friday, July 27, 2012

umbrellas and fairytales

It's been a while since i have written a rainy-day post...today seems like a good day for one :)

 i must admit, summer rains and thunderstorms can be quite refreshing. unless, of course, they get in the way of plans. However i find them long-awaited respites from the sultry seasonal heat waves, As the sun's rays find their way through the soupy clouds and, upon peeking through, shine on the falling droplets, they make them sparkle and glisten before falling into tepid puddles on the ground. Your own backyard can be transformed into a wonderland.

Once upon  a time, when i was little, i scrambled up into one of the short, yet seemingly sky-scraping maple trees in the backyard. Daydreaming, i sat there for what seemed like hours as the summer shower cascaded around me, while the tree branches created a safe umbrella above. My childish self fantasized a make-believe game of sorts, that soon had me enveloped in its whimsical tale. I eventually awakened to the thought that if i stayed out too long, i would be missed and cause worry. Slowly, I clambered down out of the tree. Gripping the final branch, i pushed off against the slim trunk with my unshod feet. Upon releasing my hold, I parachuted back down to Planet Earth, landing on the flagstone behind our backdoor with a thud. Rushing up the steps, my feet whispering against the damp, mossy bricks, I swung open the doors to find my world safe and secure. But it was not without some dissapointment, as I found I had unnecessarily left my capsule that had carried me back in time, only to find life continuing as usual and without interuption.

That was many years ago. We have long since moved, and times have changed. Unfortunately, our new backyard is very lacking in the sort of trees that are good for climbing when it is rainy, so i must settle for something else. But what this activity lacks in excersize, it most certainly makes up for with its probability of presenting tales of dashing heroes, mischievous escapades, and swashbuckling adventures that leave you breathless. Rainy summer days are the perfect time to switch off the tele, pour yourself a piping hot cuppa, don your largest hoodie and snuggle into a worn, but pricelessly comfortable sofa, or, even better, take your tea and hoodie into a closet with a bare 100-watt bulb hanging suspended from the ceiling (if there is no light present, a flashlight would do just as well.) Pull the string attached to the bulb, illuminating your little cave. Closing the door behind you, curl up on the floor with a thick and deliciously tantalizing time-worn volume. Let yourself escape the elverlasting grip of time, while the patter of raindrops splattering on the roof above serenades the adventures unfolding before your mind's eye.

 After scanning each dog-eared musty and yellowed leaf, you will surely find yourself turning them with all haste, while anticipating the next dripping phrase awaiting you on the following page. You let the story spirit you away to a place that is untouched by the troubles of your world. You let it carry you off, to a 'land lost in time.'



Enjoy the weather. I'm off to go paint. Or try to paint. I tend to get more paint in my hair than on the walls. Sometimes i wonder if i should just try to paint my hair, and then it'll actually get on the intended surface. So long :)

Friday, July 20, 2012

Choosing to accept what we have

We pull open the glass doors and are greeted by a blast of cool air. There is a wonderful lack of humidity in the building.  we walk along the white hallway, the carpeted floor softening our steps. We find the correct room, and enter. Several people are standing around chatting. Thoughts like

 i don't know anyone here.

 i don't want to be here.

 All i wanted was to go to a basketball game.

are running through my head. I sit down in the second row from the front, clutching my army-green backpack. Eventually everyone takes their seats, and they begin. People glance around them as a few more straggle in. I try to listen to what the people are saying, but more of my thoughts keep flooding in. I try to push them aside, but I'm only partially successful.

The people at the front continue to talk, and my mind weakens a little as they tell us about their experiences. I must admit, i did find it interesting, but to be honest, i didn't want to be interested. I wanted to rebel.
 


They ended it, and began praying. All i wanted was to get out of there, but i was angry with myself for thinking that. I wanted to want to stay there and participate, if that makes sense, but i still did not want to. I felt apathetic and i hated it. i knew i should feel differently about this whole scenario, but i didn't.

What i realize now is, that if we rebel, and do not accept what we have and choose to make the best of it, then our mind will not let us enjoy the time we are given. These people just sacrificed a huge portion of their lives to help other people, and i was begrudging them two hours of my time. I wasn't letting go of my wish to be at another place. I knew i was wrong, but i did not stop myself. Now i realize that that's the way we would constantly be without Christ. And now I'm thankful more than ever that we don't have to always be like that. Thankfully, we can change.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Me and the World

I like taking pictures. I love taking pictures. I think the camera is one of the most superfluous, yet incredible inventions in the history of inventions. When you have a camera in your hands you are capable of freezing time into little things called pixels. Those pixels group themselves together to create an image that could last lifetimes. And even more nowadays where they can be stored in computers. But that's not the point. I want to take pictures that matter to the WHOLE, entire world. Like pictures of riots in Egypt. Of disasters like 9/11. Things that the population really care about and pictures that really interest them. 

It has been a long standing dream of mine to become a photographic journalist...that and learn how to ride a unicycle and play the ukelele.but that's beside the point. What i really want to say is that i think it would be perfectly marvelous to get paid to travel the world...even if it means having to deal with deadlines and such. I haven't really researched it much, so i may be wrong about how this sort of thing works. But we only live in this world for one lifetime and i want to see it. I want to smell the spices in Asia. Listen to the toll of Big Ben in Europe. Observe the Buffalo in the North American grasslands. 

I might change my mind someday. Might decide to go to college and become a teacher in Quebec for all i know. But for now, this is my dream.